I wonder if they know how lucky they are. each time I read a post on face book a new friend is announcing a pregnancy (its probably not every time but when you’re trying that’s all you see) they complain about morning sickness, they’re posting funny pregnancy memes, they do the whole picture with a fruit beside them with all the updates, and deep down I’m happy for them.
We never got to do that… I mean sure I downloaded an app that told us all the cool things, but I never told anyone. I was too scared to say anything on any social platform. I knew that something was wrong though. I could just feel it in my heart, but I couldn’t admit it to myself. I lost that little bean a year ago. I don’t wanna get into the nitty gritty but it happened.
So here we are a year later we’ve healed as much as you could expect but honestly it’s a pain that I never stop feeling… Before I couldn’t go out in public without bawling my eyes out looking at happy families or having a mental brake in the baby isles at Walmart. I’ve come a long way. Now I just open my closet to look at all the diapers I bought in hopes to stock up. I shed a few tears over the outfit my husbands sister bought us. It’s gonna be ok though. its ok to feel that way.
So in conclusion of todays post I wanna shed some positive light on the fact that yours truly has started her ovulation/fertile week off right. I’m filled to the brim with the finest of prenatal vitamins and, other helpful supplements and we’ll probably talk about all that in the next post. Till then I hope you all have a lovely day and send some positivity or prayers my way!!
-Elisabeth
Ps. I just wanna put it out there but like I am 100 percent aware that my punctuation sucks and I’ve been the queen of a run on sentence since I knew what it was… haha I’ll figure it out one day.
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